Dear God

Dear God,

For the past year and a half, I've been trying to figure out what life really means there's so much going on. I've lost a part of me. My life feels so incomplete there's a open gaping hole in my heart, from all the times I let my self get hurt. I start and wonder where and when i messed up. And that it was all my fault. Please God help me go back in time and let me be a ghost or the voice in my head who tells me right from wrong. If you can't do that sir, at least send me another angle, because the first one i already let go. I know i messed up, but I want another chance to fix my mess. God I ask that where ever my first angle is you let my angle know that i am sorry for the harm i caused and that thanks to her i am sitting here thinking about the times i messed up. and that i should of listened because now i am paying the price. i am sitting here all alone with no one to turn to except this pen.....and the pages of this note book.

dedicated to BK

Hero or Zero

I ask my self if you were really a hero.

Or just a Zero

You were always there for me when i needed you

You were always the person i could look up to

You where such a great friend

But yet you stabbed me in the back in the end

Should i really consider you that person next to

Superman and Mia Hamm

Or should i consider you a Zero

I don't know if i should

Or i Shouldn't because

Everything you helped me in was so great

All the advice about life

About coming

And doing good in school

And just being my self

was true

And it turned out to be useful now in day

So what should i do?

Consider you as

A Hero

Or

Zero

Men vs Women sports still a issue

Recently i really started to notice that many News Stations/Sports Channels don't show highlights of Women's Sports Games, or whats going on with there sport career. The only way that they'll show highlights or just talk about it for 30 seconds is if they won some major award but that's it. But hey if Manny Rivera using steroids and Football players shooting them self's is more important then giving highlights of REAL ATHLETES then show it. I cant believe sexism is still a major issue in this country and the Women still have to fight for there rights and there equality in this society. For example: Fox 29 Philly. When the MLS announced that they would be having a team in Philly, Fox 29 talked about it on there show and even followed it when they signed the letter of intent and of course the signing ceremony, But When the WPS announced they would have a team they DID NOT even mention it not even once, And when the USA Men's soccer team played games in the Gold cup they followed them...but did they ever follow the USA Women's National soccer team in the Olympics or any other game? NO they did not. they did how ever give Carli Lloyd a chance to speak. Espn has also not done there share of the part either, and they call them self's a Sport network. If TV stations gave props to some real athletes like the ladies of the WNBA,WPS, and all other Women/Female athletes there sport would grow. I wonder are they just scared that Women's sports will grow bigger? or are they cowards?